I think besides Saturday evening Tuesday morning was the hardest day! I got up and got dressed and as I walked down the stairs I just started sobbing. I knew that the gate would be down and no Lily would be standing there waiting for me behind the gate.
As I put my shoes on and got my coffee etc I cried and cried... my morning routine had become open gate, greet Lily, let Lily out and in, give her meds and treats, check her water and food bowls, get my stuff ready, put gate up and say goodbye and "be a good girl Lily".
I gathered my thoughts and as I passed the exit to the Akron ER we took her to I again started sobbing, thinking of her in that baby incubator, struggling to breathe and the fact that we left her there.....just ripped my heart out!
I met my coworker in the parking garage and she said she was sorry to hear about Lily... more sobbing, just uncontrollable sometimes! Needless to say everyday I take a make up bag to work now, just in case the moment strikes and I have to freshen up.
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